By: Marilyn L. Davis
Stop Where You Are and Choose Your Bottom
Must The Bottom Be So Far Down?
I was in treatment with over 80 other people; all of us with a substance abuse problem, but not all experiencing the same intervention techniques, reality checks, or bottoms. Some members of my group lived in abandoned buildings, others resided in mansions paid for by their basketball earnings, and others flopped with whatever family member they could manipulate into giving them a roof over their heads.
Hitting Bottom is Different for Each of Us
“The thing about hitting bottom is that, in the middle of it, sometimes you don’t know if you’re really hitting bottom or just bouncing off ledges on your way further down.” ― Frederick Weisel, Teller
One woman, who closely resembled a young Elizabeth Taylor, would stand next to the patient bulletin board and help direct traffic. I assumed she was a staff member. She seemed poised, together, and cheerful. I asked her for directions on my second day out of detox, and she said, “I’m going to that group, just follow me.”
Imagine my shock when it turned out that she was a patient. I am someone who can preen, fluff the hair, and do all those beauty routines, and five minutes later, I still look like an unmade bed.
Here she was, seemingly self-confident, self-assured, positive, and helpful. I then assumed that she was nearing completion of her treatment to look and act so positive and vital. Wrong again.
High Bottoms: No Less Painful
Her bottom was not being able to tuck her child into bed one night. Her five-year-old daughter had gone on her first spend the night party. As sometimes happens, long past her usual bedtime, she wanted to go home.
My friend got a phone call about 10:30 to come and get her daughter, which wouldn’t usually be a problem. However, that night, she had taken the opportunity to start drinking earlier in the evening without her daughter there and was too intoxicated to pick her up. Her husband went instead.
Leaning down to adjust the covers over her half-sleeping daughter, she fell into the bed. Now her daughter was awake and crying.
My friend entered treatment the next day.
Bottoms Are Just the Last Place We Land
My bottom was an intervention; Kathleen’s was not fulfilling her obligations as a mom, Jake’s was losing his business, and AJ lost a lucritive professional basketball contract.
- What was your bottom?
- Are you grateful that you reached a bottom and survived?
- Are you satisfied with your life now?
If you decide that your life is not good now, is it because you are using too much and disappointing yourself and others?
Then you have an excellent opportunity to choose this moment to be your bottom.
You can decide that you won’t go any further down to satisfy your addiction. It is a time when you stand up for yourself, and decide to make life changes. With this decision, you’ll stop disappointing yourself and others, if you follow some simple guidelines from others who are in recovery.
Had Enough? Now Take Action
So you now decide to quit using. What can you do, and what can you expect? You may need detox, depending on what you have used. Detox is a medical issue; depending on withdrawal or the threats from DT’s or seizures. Get a professional evaluation of your decision to quit using and claim this as your bottom. If you do not need detox, or you have finished your detox, how do you get into and stay in recovery?
You’ve got some options for recovery after detox. Some you might consider are:
• Inpatient treatment
• Outpatient treatment
Regardless of how you find support, guidance, and encouragement for your recovery, know that it is easier to stay in recovery with help.
I’ve always thought that the quote from Israelmore Ayivor speaks to all the ways we’ve tried to overcome our addiction on our own, and haven’t been successful. “You need to GIVE UP on methods that always give you wrong results… No matter how committed you are with a wrong formula, it always gives a wrong answer. Give up!”
So, if you’ve decided that your methods haven’t worked and want a different outcome, here’s what’s waiting for you when you reach a bottom and climb.
Life is Looking Up
When you find the right support for you, your life takes on new meaning and purpose. Recovery taught me to view this life as a journey. Now, “journey” is a word I do not like. However, like so many other things in this world of addiction, it is commonly used vernacular or lingo. (Sorry all for that personal bias; I am sure some of the negative association is with the band of the same name.)
Whether you call your recovery a journey, a second chance, an opportunity to change, or the way up-embrace it, value it and know that you do not have to experience another bottom again.
Writing, and recovery heals the heart
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