As a person in long-term recovery, I made many resolutions to stop drinking and using drugs, most of which were while I was high, couldn’t pay a bill, or I had a hangover. That resolution lasted as long as I felt bad, or about 24 hours.
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Ambivalence or of two minds happens when a person has both positive and negative feelings about someone or something and is struggling with deciding which option has more merit.
You’ll know you are ambivalent if you think conflicting thoughts about something, or hear yourself talking about a subject and then qualify it with a “but….”, “however…..”, or “on the other hand I think or feel……”.
One of the most important aspects of the recovery process is that you do not have to have all of the answers to your problems. A common statistic is that 1 in 10 Americans are in recovery. That equates to 23 million people who have found solutions and in many cases, are willing to share their suggestions and directions with the rest of us. For any other problem, we typically Google our search. For recovery, it’s no different.
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How often do you pay attention to your thoughts? Have you ever sat back and taken a close look at how your thoughts influence the way you feel, and behave? Have you recognized how you tend to think about your life situations; are you positive or negative about them? Thoughts are a very powerful thing, and influence your life in unimaginable ways.
When I was younger, I always thought there was this better version of me that I was waiting to grow into. That may very well be true, but thinking of a heaven in the future can make a hell out of the present. Speaking of damnation, I’ve had a deep and vicious fear of hell all throughout my life. One that waited, hungry for me at the end of this life.
Most jugglers begin with a couple of things to see if they can handle it, or to obtain a rhythm to keep going. Over time, additional objects are handled, after they feel they have mastered the initial things at hand. As recovering people, we tend to take the opposite approach by beginning with the most difficult.
My life in recovery is more even-keeled than that. Even-keeled doesn’t quite feel like the right word. My happiness, while more mellow and low-key today, is more constant than the peaks and valleys of getting high, more unshakeable than relying on something outside of myself that has become unreliable.
In about three weeks, I’ll celebrate 25 years in recovery. I look back in utter amazement and gratitude, often humbled by the spiritual family that cared enough, and loved me enough, to call me out on my BS. I was raised old school AA ―structure, traditions, service positions, always involved in some fashion.