I’m Stressed in my Recovery, What Do I Do?

By marilynldavis

“Stress level: extreme. It’s like she was a jar with the lid screwed on too tight, and inside the jar were pickles, angry pickles, and they were fermenting, and about to explode.”

Recovery Means No More Fake Appearances

By marilynldavis

Addiction forces us to present a fake appearance. We smile, when every fiber of our being is screaming in pain. We posture as friendly, when all we want to do is get our dope and leave. We pretend that we have it all together when we take our children to school or football. We show fake emotions because we are so embarrassed and frightened by our authentic ones. 

Addiction Distorts – Recovery Transforms

By marilynldavis

How convenient and dishonest to say that all the harmful things I did to people were in my use. Then I could blame my behaviors, attitudes and actions on a substance, not the shadow aspects of myself or my character defects. Although my use distorted my thinking, behaviors, and attitudes, it was the shadow aspects or myself and my character defects that fueled my actions as much as my use.

Thursday Truths: Dave D.

By marilynldavis

Growing Up, I Never Grew Up   My name is David Delorenzo. I was born June 2, 1981. My clean date is May 1, 2015. So that’s three years and some change. I grew up in San Diego California. I am the youngest of three boys. My two brothers are only a year and a…