By: Marilyn L. Davis
I Understand the Status Quo
I used drugs and alcohol to cope, and that worked until it didn’t work anymore. My solution? Add more. And when that didn’t work? More and more to the mix. The same old, same old, just more.
Still, I kept on using. And there are countless people out there who keep adding more and more, too. They know it’s not working, but don’t have a solution to the problem, so they stay stuck on the fence and can’t make a decision to quit, or they are just ambivalent.
Some individuals are undecided, or of two minds about quitting and change. They may have gotten so used to living in unfulfilling relationships, lived here and there with whoever would take them in that night; made money/did not make money, know the hours of the soup kitchen and where day labor can produce enough money to get alcohol or drugs, or being in trouble with the law.
Recovery offers us a chance to live, enjoying the rewards of our efforts, and an opportunity to do more than subsist or keep our head above water.
Changing the Status Quo
I can’t take credit for stopping on my own. In 1988, five caring individuals from Brenau University staged an intervention on me. They gave me an ultimatum; go to treatment that night or be fired. They also told me that they cared for me and believed that I could find the resolve to accept the help offered by treatment.
I think it was this combination of boundaries on behavior and demonstrating faith that I had the resolve, discipline, and desire to receive the help that allowed this intervention to work.
It is almost 32 years now since this occurred without any relapses. I still consider this help the most important I have ever received.
In case you don't have people encouraging you to make changes, or you're scared you'll fail, let me encourage you, but I also want you to ask yourself some questions about your reluctance to change. Click To Tweet
Are You Afraid of Change?
In case you don’t have people encouraging you to make changes, or you’re scared you’ll fail, let me encourage you, but I also want you to ask yourself some questions about your reluctance to change. When this reluctance to change is evident, ask yourself:
- Do weighted or straightforward pros and cons to help with your answers.
Is there any incentive to change in my actions?
- List all of the motivators: family, job, health, or fear of legal repercussions.
What might I learn through the process of change?
- Changing is a process, using goals and sub-goals to move your towards the goal of long-term recovery is a start.
What might be the benefits to me of change?
- Again, make that list: freedom, better relationships, no more jail, or whatever you decide is a benefit is what counts.
What are my feelings about changing?
- When we talk about ambivalence, we are of two minds. One part wants the changes, and another part of our emotional and mental make-up is scared of change. That’s okay, list all of your feelings and why you feel that way.
Change Must Be Personal
Most people, even those in early recovery, know what others are going to say about recovery. You have sat in enough groups, lectures, and meetings to have an idea of everyone else’s answers for the questions, but this is your recovery. Sometimes your perspective on a solution will differ from treatment, your support network, or your sponsor or accountability partner.
When you are answering the following, make sure that you are answering these from your perspective.
Do I have an outside motivation to change?
- In my case, my motivation was my job. It can also be Probation, pending criminal cases, the threat of a spouse, and children leaving, to name a few.
What will my changes cost me?
- There’s going to be fear in changing, and some people aren’t willing to pay the price of being uncomfortable during the change. Others, like a drug dealer or high-end prostitute, would have an actual financial cost if they went from one life-style to another legitimate job.
Are there attitudes that hold me back?
- Some people think it’s weak to ask for help. Not asking for guidance and support from people who’ve been in recovery is not weak; it’s showing good judgment and being sensible.
With your answers, you can determine some of your resistance. At this point, you have to decide if continuing to take the opportunity for further change is something that you want and if you are capable of putting forth the energy needed to accomplish the change.
It’s Okay to Be Ambivalent, Just Do It Anyway
Most people in recovery feel ambivalent or disinterested in change at times. Things are going better in their lives; they are not in as much trouble either at home, work, or with the judicial system, and they have a little money in their pocket.
These plateaus are predictable, and you may find in answering the questions that your desire to change is still there, but that you are satisfied, for the moment, with the changes to date. What you may be missing is the numerous other opportunities waiting for you with just a few more changes.
Asking other participants, your sponsor/accountability partner, or your facilitator and counselor what they did to refocus and start making more changes will give you an idea of how many people have experienced these plateaus.
What you want to accomplish is to stop being ambivalent or disinterested in change. The danger in resting on your laurels is that you can become complacent, bored, or unconcerned about additional changes.
Recovery is Not a Static or Fixed Thing
There is a 12 Step based saying, “Recovery is a journey, not a destination.” Therefore, if you find that you are reluctant to change anything else because life is good now, you may just be shortchanging yourself.
Granted, no one knows what the future will bring, but if you have experienced better outcomes in your present because of your changes, common sense tells you that you will continue to experience the same with additional changes.
Additional changes could and probably will enhance and enrich your life just that much more.
Writing, and recovery heals the heart.
I believe that each person has a unique way of conveying the same information. Given that some of us are visual teachers and others are audio learners, we need more people writing from their perspective to reach those still struggling in their addictions. Consider a guest post today.